Recovery: Part I
What is recovery? By definition it is 'restoration or return to health from sickness.' In theory it seems simple; you get sick and stay in bed for a few days. Day by day you get better, eventually you forget you were even sick. If only this was the case for me. I wake up hoping my sickness will be magically gone and my health will return 5x better than it was, unfortunately every morning when I open my eyes I am disappointed. I'm only 17 years old, young people aren't meant to get a sickness most older adults get, this is what they led you to believe. This is what I too believed growing up, oblivious to the fact that it can be a reality. I suppose I should explain. To spare you all the medical bullshit I will cut right to the chase. I got diagnosed with glandular fever - a viral infection that can not be treated with medication. Yes it is the 21st century and some sickness's can not be cured by modern medicine. You simply rest and gradually you get better, well for most cases. However, I was a rare case. It didn't got away and I didn't get better- in fact I got worse. I got diagnosed in September last year and have not had a healthy day since. Fast forward 6 months later and I got diagnosed with chronic fatigue syndrome (CFS). To sum up CFS it's an illness that affects how you function: exhaustion, loss of appetite, nausea, nerve/chronic pain and of course severe fatigue. Most days I feel like a 17 year old trapped in an 80 year old body. My body can no longer function the way it could. Because of this my whole lifestyle has changed. The toll on my body isn't the only thing this sickness had taken from me. I have lost a lot in a short amount of time,something I never could have predicted- but that's for another post. I'll leave it here with my own interpretation of what recovery is. A complete lifestyle change, I believe that's what recovery is.